Ruminating on Recording

Lately I’ve been having trouble sitting down to record a podcast. In part because of just being too busy or because I’m too tired when I do have the time.

But also I’ve been having trouble finding anything to talk about. Lately I feel like it’s just been tired kind of repetitious ramblings about my garden and and about being busy with life. Although I have liked my random recipe drops, I feel like I haven’t produced any real quality episodes in quite a while. My only goal in the show is to be entertaining in some way. But lately I don’t really feel like I’ve been accomplishing that.

To a certain degree I feel like the time between episodes takes away the energy I have to talk about things. You know how you’re just more passionate about things that recently happened moreso than something that happened weeks ago? That. I’ve got so much distance between recording sessions that things that I really was excited to talk about when they happened, I no longer have the same excitement for. If I remember wanting to talk about them at all.

At the same time I’ve been very disappointed in myself at the quality of the show posts on the website. Along with the multiple segments and the podcast reviews, went the longer, more in-depth posts with links and the full recipes that I talk about. I know it’s connected to my current recording situation where I record in the wee hours of the morning when I have a little time and then rush out the release. I think I’m gonna try to go back in and update some of the skimpy show notes. But, I have no clue what kind of time that’s gonna take.

I’m not really sure what I should do about all of it. On one hand, I love recording the podcast and sharing all of my life with you all. But on the other hand, it’s supposed to be an entertainment medium, and I don’t feel like I’ve been doing a very good job of entertaining lately. Throw in everyone’s best friend, low self-esteem, and I start wondering if I’m even entertaining to anyone to begin with.

Yeeeaaaah I know this has just been one big rambling pity party post. But sometimes the house is loud and I have to empty my brain out without the use of a microphone. Which I have to say takes sooooo much longer to do. Geeze, writing is slow. It’s no wonder I chose podcasting over blogging. Holy crap.